Detox Roundup

Time to summarize my week of mental health detoxification. Not that thinking about my brother on a milk carton is good for my mental health at all. Please, please let us find out something.

Here was my list again:

  • Meds
  • Spoons
  • Rate
  • Breathe
  • List
  • Breakfast
  • Overall, I think I did well. I took my pm meds every night, and since I ate breakfast every morning, I couldn’t excuse not taking my am meds with not eating. So meds, check, breakfast, check.

    The spoons were a different story. I knew on Monday that counting spoons was not worth the effort; it’s conserving spoons that I need to work on. I will become a spoon hoarder–and now I’m picturing a sleeping dragon atop a hoard of plain stainless steel spoons. Maybe I’ll draw that.

    Back to business!

    Rating, well, I didn’t keep up on it after Tuesday. I don’t think that’s something I need to work on. I know how I feel, when it’s bad and when it’s good, and I know the reasons for it. I can increase the good and decrease the bad with CBT, what I’m already doing to conserve spoons. Practicing mindfulness of my thoughts.

    Breathing was not as easy as it seemed it would be. I did log 10-20 minutes per day, but not necessarily when it would have done me the most good. I think the problem there is that I’ve always practiced breath control when I’m already relatively calm, and I find a quiet spot, usually our bedroom or the living room. I think it would be a good idea for me to carry headphones with me, especially when I go to appointments, so I can stop right away and calm myself down with some deep breaths and soothing sound to block out what’s bothering me. I’m going to practice taking a break to breathe when I start to feel anxious or upset, so that it becomes habit to do so.

    And my list! This was my favorite part.

    1. Hugs from Ian
    2. Hugs from Abby because she hugs like her dad–they hug like they mean it
    3. Singing
    4. Coconuts
    5. The cold spot at the bottom of the deep end
    6. Surprise nail polish–my favorite was when Ian found a batch of 8 or so new on Craigslist
    7. Dance Dance Revolution
    8. Goldimouse and the Three Cats
    9. Cool sheets, but not too cold
    10. The smell inside a library
    11. Playing board games with my Ian, my parents, and my brothers and sister during the holidays
    12. Pencil sharpeners with two holes–I like to use the big one because the sharpened pencils are more aesthetically pleasing.
    13. Blank paper, especially watercolor paper
    14. Remembering how my grandpa would say, ‘cheese and crackers, April Inez!’ in exasperation
    15. 50 First Dates
    16. Yelling ‘fore!’ when we drive past the practice range
    17. Olive Garden salad
    18. Ian’s love of fake mustaches
    19. Stickers
    20. Starting my period without medication
    21. Knowing my family is safe and sound

    Mental Health Detox

    Belle posted about doing a 7 day detox a couple of days ago, and I was mucking around about one of my own after reading it. Then yesterday, after lying in bed and taking stock of myself, I realized how badly I’m doing lately dealing with my depression.

    It’s bad.

    I wrote my Time Warp Tuesday post and it slapped me in the face again.

    I read this post and Gemma introduced me to the spoon theory. I had no spoons left yesterday.

    I remembered Belle’s detox, and decided I needed to do something. I asked my mom if she had any antidepressants to bring me, so I’ll be starting Viibryd tonight. It’s become one of those times that I don’t have the reserves to do it all on my own.

    I’m going to count my spoons. I’ve been doing trade offs for a long time, dishes for laundry, dinner for makeup, shower for anything else, but I’ve never actually kept track of what or how often I trade off on any given day.

    I’m going to rate my mood on a scale of 1-10 three times a day, and look to see when it’s worse or better. I’ll see if I can figure out whether outside or inside influences are affecting my mood more.

    I’m going to breathe. I do breathing exercises pretty erratically, but almost daily. I feel better afterwards, so I’m going to commit to five minutes, three times a day.

    I’m going to list three new things that make me happy every day. I’ll share them at the end of my daily posts.

    I’m going to track all of this and post my results and what tweaks I’m going to make next Sunday.

    Okay, and one diet change: I’m going to eat breakfast every day within half an hour of getting up.


  • Meds
  • Spoons
  • Rate
  • Breathe
  • List
  • Breakfast
  • What do you think?