UnderestimationPosted: January 15, 2013
I didn’t put quite enough emphasis on the fact that Lexapro sucks for me.
Sucks sucks sucks sucks sucks.
It isn’t just the sleep. Now it’s the depression too. Or rather, the realization of depression.
I have had a really bad evening. I know I’ve been a lot more irritable lately. Tonight I realized that I feel the same that I did a year and eight months ago.
It doesn’t matter how much or how well I parent, I will never, ever be Abby’s mother.
I hate that Ian took that away from me. I hate that that he had my child with someone else because one night he got pissed.
I hate that tonight I cried and cried and Abby told me that she’ll take care of me and that she’s sorry. I told her and told her that it’s not her fault, that she didn’t make me cry. I hope she understands.