I Suck at Bingeing
Posted: December 5, 2011 Filed under: Emotions, Health, Marriage, Treatment | Tags: anxiety, bullshit, depression, disappointment, junk food 12 CommentsAh, the irony. I had begun a post about how anxious I was for Friday to come, bringing the appointment I’ve been waiting six months for. Yeah, that’s deleted. As is my appointment.
That’s right, ladies and gents. The appointment that was cancelled and rescheduled has been cancelled again. For good. Because the RE resigned. They should have another by the first week of February. Do I get rescheduled? Of course not. You know what? Screw them.
We were at Dollar Tree when I got the call, so I went and sat in the car for a bit then came back inside. And stocked up on junk.
And club soda to wash it down.
I did manage to eat half the Chocolate Pearls.
But seriously, WTF???
I’m tired of the letdowns. I feel like the shittiest person in the world. I hate my body for being a jerk. I hate myself for hating my body. I hate myself for getting my hopes up when I should have known better. I hate myself for being upset. I hate myself for hating myself. I hate being so tired all the time. I hate that psych meds are so fricking expensive. I hate that I can’t even put a good dent a stockpile of junk food.
At least I’d already planned to make chicken and dumplings for dinner. Chicken and dumplings fixes a lot.
Well, if you need help finishing that Texas Toast, I am here. Also, that’s shitty and those people need a swift kick in the eye. Is there any chance of getting in with an RE somewhere else?
We had it with dinner, and omg it was so good!
Not in our budget right now. Looks like it’s a no-go until April. At least the new guy might call me in a refill for my blood pressure meds. I don’t think I’ve ever needed them more.
oh no that does suck. sorry to hear. step away from the junk though…
Lol, I could barely step toward it in the first place! Definitely should have hit up the grocery store for some zucchini and green beans. Maybe even an artichoke.
This makes me want to punch someone for you. I think I might just go do that.
I have just the person in mind…
WTF! What is wrong with these people!!? If I were you I would call the new guy every week and in Feb every day till I got an appointment!
I will help you with the string cheese and the almond joy! Hang in there honey. BIG HUGZ!
I’m not sure I even want to SEE that place ever again. I swear, the troubles they have put me through!!
Only one string cheese left, you better hurry!
So you gonna look around for a new RE for April? I would check around and see if anyone knows a nice one.
Actually, that one was the nice one with the highest success rates. I don’t technically have to find one, since my FP will now prescribe me letrozole and tamoxifen. I just want to throw my hands up an scream ‘why??’ you know?
Yea that is frustrating!
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