Pretty Well, Actually

I had a bit of a chat yesterday morning with a friend who moved away a few years ago, and when she asked me how I was doing, I was able to say, in all honesty, ‘pretty well, actually.’

Now, when anyone asks me that question, I really do give it serious thought, but my answer always depends on whether or not the asker really give two bits about how I am. I don’t ask unless I want to hear your answer, but the question itself has become such a standardized greeting, in retail, for example, that it doesn’t necessarily call for a real response. Instead of ‘Hi!/Hi!,’ it’s ‘How are you?/Fine, how are you?’ Pet peeve of mine.

But yes, pretty well, actually. I’ve come to terms with a lot more lately than I ever have. I’ve been able to finally find the right words to explain some things to my husband that he never quite got before. I’ve really and truly been able to take it one day at a time, or less, if need be. And even though I decided at the last minute to sit NaNoWriMo out, I’ve come to believe that yes, there really is a book in there after all.

Maybe I’m on a high because we leave tomorrow for my mom’s. She should still be feeling half decent from her last round of treatment, so that’s good. It should be a good trip.

The only real dark spots on an otherwise reasonably bright and shining excerpt of my life are my worries and concerns for the wonderful friends I’ve made here who are having their own troubling times; from a sick mom, to a sick brother, to maddening waits, to sisters popping out babies like they’re going out of style. I love you gals, and I just wish I could protect you from all the things out there that make you sad. If I’m doing better, I should be able to do something for you. I hope it all works out okay, and nobody’s brain breaks.

How are you doing?

8 Comments on “Pretty Well, Actually”

  1. Tigger says:

    Stressed out beyond belief, which means I’m seeing things (like spiders crawling into my son’s eye while I’m feeding him, jumping at everything, and generally feeling freaked. Missing another cycle, for only the second time in my life – the first one being about 4 years ago, same time of year, while I was going to school and mom was dying. Thankfully it’s Thanksgiving week, which means a week off of classes. I do have one assignment do to that is supposed to be ready when we go back, but that’s it. Thanks for asking!

    I’m very glad to hear that things are going well for you, finally. 🙂 Yay for being able to spend time with your mom, and explaining things to your husband. It’s always nice when they finally understand what you’re trying to say! If I don’t hear from you before then, have a fabulous Thanksgiving!

  2. Tricia says:

    I feel like you are all the way on the other side of the country living a life that could be mine, save a few details. I’m glad your mom is feeling ok these days. I sit here next to mine afraid to leave her side but wishing to just run run away…And feeling guilty for wanting to run.
    There is a book in all of us I think. How do we access it? Let it out? That’s always my question. Where do I start? I get angry because it’s all in my head but it doesn’t just flow.
    I’m glad you are feeling better. You deserve peace.

    • aprilvak says:

      It gets so hard sometimes when your mom is seriously ill. Worrying about her, wondering why some family doesn’t seem to worry at all, worrying about siblings who still live at home, and trying to take five minutes here or there to worry about yourself. I think about you all the time, hoping and praying everything goes well.

      I think I’m going to start letting the book out soon. Thank you.

  3. Hi there, here from ICLW.
    Well, I’m doing ok. At least at this very moment. I general, I’m extremely stressed out from work, trying to learn my new job on the job – wouldn’t be that bad if it didn’t come with a lot of responsibility (I’m a software project lead). And then there’s the fact that I’m in another 2-week-wait that I just know will be unsuccessful again (even though hubby is convinced otherwise). And that in December we’ll have to decide on pursuing ART. Then again, I’m doing much better then I was two weeks ago, after Aunt Flo came for another visit. So I guess, yea, I’m doing ok.
    But I’m definitely glad that you’re pretty well!

    • aprilvak says:

      Thanks for stopping by! I hope the stress gets better as you get into the swing of things there. And I’ll stay positive with your husband about this two week wait for you!

  4. I think I’m actually good. I hate my job, but otherwise life is great and I know I’m done working in May anyways! Now if only I could get full for more than five minutes. I’m HUNGRY! I’m so glad to hear that things are better and that you and your husband are communicating better than ever!

    • aprilvak says:

      And you only have tomorrow left to work this week, right?

      We called my friend’s daughter ‘the tapeworm’ when she was pregnant because she was so hungry all the time.

      I’m glad too!

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